1:35 Thought

Hi.

It’s 1:35 AM as I’m writing this on my phone. So I recently reunited with one of my closest friends (hi Echa) after A WHOLE YEAR of just staying in touch online. I had an eye-opening conversation with her. We talked about everything, literally EVERYTHING. About our jobs, our families, our love lives (more like her love life nsnasjjssj, anyways..) our current struggles, and our five-year plan for the future. I also got a new perspective on how to be an ‘adult’ at this weird age. Cause I’m not even sure if 23 is considered an ‘adult’ or am I still a ‘child’. Because I may be an ‘adult’, but not to my parents. It’s crazy how a year could change someone because reflecting to myself back in 2018, I was a whole different person. 

Many things happened in a span of one year and I learned from every single one of it. I learned that 1) things aren’t always the way I want them to be, and it’s okay. I also learned to 2) always have a backup plan, in case the first lesson happened. I’m mantaining my circle and keeping it as small as possible because having few friends is actually a great thing.

I’m just very happy with the way things are right now. I’m mentally stable, thriving at work, keeping my circle small, drinking enough water (yes this is a personal achievement), and just- content. And happy.

I never get to say this enough but I’m happy & thankful for all my friends surrounding me. Those who are literally there for me every second, who keeps me sane and brings out the ‘alay’-ness in me lol (if you take my ‘alay’-ness seriously, please move out of my face) and those who aren’t always with me all the time but once we meet for a catch up, a long ass conversation happens and I don’t even get to touch my phone and get distracted by it. I’m happy with how balanced the friendships I made. I have someone I can go to when I’m happy/sad to be my ‘cheerleader’, I have someone I can go to when I’m confused with how my life is treating me and in need of advice, I have someone I can go to when I need to have deep conversations with. And what amazes me is that all these someones are totally different people with entirely different backgrounds. I’m happy I stepped out of my comfort zone and got to meet all these different people under different circumstances. Honestly, I’m just happy with how small my circle is. 

So if you ever think about how my friends are “orangnya itu-itu aja”, I take it as a compliment and I thank you. The smaller your circle of friendship, the more real it is.

Thank you for taking your time to read my blog.

Sincerely,
Linkan xx